THIN

I feel as if these women and girls incoherently hoped for a way to stay in their disorder. Some cases have been going on for so long, you feel comfortable and this became all of what they knew. When Alisa met up with Shelly for dinner accompanied by her two children, I was so excited for her to chow down on that salad-even I wanted a bite!!! Then my excitement diminished from a 10 all the way down to .02 when she snuck off in the bathroom to purge. First thing I noticed when she went inside the bathroom was the HUGE weight on the floor as soon as you enter. It really showed me that she probably weighs herself everytime she enters. I have no idea the ability of control these women have or are able to maintain, but what kept crossing my mind was I would try my hardest to eliminate all mirrors, weights, television shows, everything that stimulates my disorder. I would feed into other outlets such as reading, and praying (and I am aware everyone's level of composure is different). I really feel it for these women. After completion of an A&P course, I was shown the magnitude of necessary routes your body undergoes just for stability. There was a understanding of the extent certain nutrients that are mandatory to have in your body in order to live; so as I'm watching these girls struggle it just broke my heart to see the pain they were enduring because the thoughts, and anxiety outweighed the need for being healthy. Becoming thin just became a matter of their existence...